My brother brought 4 friends back home today, kononnya buat project but didn't even bring the project so it was actually just an excuse to play. All super stinky, haven't bathe from morning, bathe la actually, with sweat... Laugh even louder and crazier than me, no difference with shouting... Say that i'm fierce because I told my brother not to say bad words..*watever* Said something about one of them liking me and then laughing their lungs out.. *felt like stranggling them* Ish.. shut up man!

I just realized that I can't stand someone saying or giving suggestions that are against my view coz once they finish I'll shoot up and start saying that this is wrong and that is wrong or whatever la. I'll get all tensed up and my heart will beat like crazy and i can actually feel blood gushing up, ears red, anger raging,I dono why.. But, ya.. why am I like tat??Weird... Patience.. Patience...Longsuffering... Longsuffering...Patience... Lonsuffering...Patience.. Patience...Longsuffering... Longsuffering...Patience... Lonsuffering... Breathe in, breathe out, breahte in, breathe out... Next time I'll just try to remain silent...haha...

Good bye...
You've been rejected
Good bye....
You've been quite a burden to me...
Good bye...
I've wasted quite alot of time on you...
Good bye...
I was once very excited but now not anymore
Good bye...
I don't wanna care anymore
Good bye...
This is too tiring for someone like me to handle
Good bye...
Maybe some other time or some other people
Good bye...
People will be disappointed in me but I don have the strength to care no longer
Good bye...
I don even feel like taking charge or care about the meeting tomorrow, I dono wat to say.
Good bye...
What am I suppose to say in the meeting tomorrow? Give motivation? I'm sorry, I can't even motivate myself.
Good bye...
A disappointment, to me, to tons of people that had tried their very best
Good bye...
I'v told people to have faith but look what happened
Good bye...
I'v told people to trust in me and trust on Him coz it WILL happen
Good bye...
I'm blown away
Good bye...
It's over
Good bye...
My no longer will be CF

Yesterday was 60 EARTH HOUR. We weren't at home so didn't on any lights or anything so counted la as participated haha! I went to my uncle's house to accompany me grandpoppa who's home alone. And all of us actually went up to some higher peak to view the KL tower and PEtronas Twin Tower turn off alll the lights. My brother and I cycled with my sister on my bike and the night was clear, the wind was blowing and stuff like tat but when we reached, the towers all sudah padam lampu... But yea..I had fun cycling at night with my sister.. my mum was like.. aiyo, be careful, later fall down ar, the leg ar, the wheel ar.. haiyo..Bring her cycling also have so much to comment about... *shakes head* it's fun la.. going down the slope at high speed, shouting at the top of your lungs, no la.. later everybody come throwing stones at me.. haha! But.. yup! It was an exciting night.

Campoorama, camporama, however you spell it la... i wanna go la... haiyooooo.. stupid piano exam.. stupid stupid stupid... Actually i dono I'm taking teacher grade's exam.. until my friend told me... haha! SEroiusly, very stupid.. Just blindly sign up for exam.. Blindly took it once and blindly failed it too.. and now not so blindly going to retake the exam again.. teacher grade.. so fast wan meh.. hahaha! But not like I'm going to be a music teacher also...haiyo.. I wanna go for camporama!!! P~leaseeee... I'v never been to one, not like cmdr Vincent, been to 4!! heng! not fair...

Cmdr Vincent, the guy that's far far away just called not so long ago... Never once knew it was so fun talking to an old man...*oops* nah... just kidding... you're not old la, not old, just been to Camporama 4 times only ma hor.. very old meh, not old at all...xD Oh ya, he owes me a handphone... Everybody remember ya, not toy phone k, not outdated phone also... it's a proper handphone... big old brother, a phone k!! oh, also tons of chocolate, don mind the getting fat part just buy me chocolate ^^ I'll be waiting...

Just realised, my recent posts are all emo-ish....read my past posts and found out that it's alot more funnier than all these recent posts... why nobody tell me my posts very er not funny? haha.. whatever..

Tomorrow needa wash tents... lalala, I can't go....

CMDR!! Julian *he says he's not use to being called cmdr* said he's gonna fetch me, then go buy food for cell, then send me to sell blablabla, all plan nicely d.. den.. POOF! My dad say cannot go... La.. whatever la... He say I join everything. Ask me to name something that I don't join... I actually couldn't answer.. haha! But it's good right? right? rightttt.. someone tell him pls... and also tell him to stop reading my messages when I'm not looking... I'm 15... *faints* But sometimes also kinda good if he reads my msgs so he knows what's going on as in those like you needa go out for some stuff then ppl send you msg, details, asking whether you can go or not and stuff like that, then I don dare to ask, then he read d, things will be easier for me.. hahahahahaha! amen

Look at this... Ah Sher is not permitted.. haha!

From the internet... Enjoy.. ^^

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Now is your chance to have your ears pierced and get an extra pair to take home, too.

Wanted: Unmarried girls to pick fresh fruit and produce at night.

We do not tear your clothing with machinery. We do it carefully by hand.

Haha... mistakes, mistakes, mistakes.. make sure you don make any of those...

Do you get the jokes?? cause one of my friend doesnt.. haha.. right friend?? dumb dumb la you *oops* hehe! If you don understand also must pretend you understand so that you 'll look smart.. haha!

I'm home alone...=(

This morning I woke up,
Bursting with confidence,
Overflowing with excitement,
I was convinced I'll do it,
Convinced I will succeed.

When I went out,
I was crushed,
Feeling empty and broken,
But somehow I couldn't manage,
To pull myself together,
Disappointment is bitter
You feel as if you've lost your worth.

I'm fine. No, I'm not! It's all gone... my hope, my face, my pride, my dignity, whatever, it's gone now. I don't wanna go to school tomorrow. I don't know how to face my classmates and my teachers who look highly on me. I'm a failure, nothing, but a failure. Everyone says that Trisha is someone who's strong but that's what that is outside of me, not of the inside. From the very day I started speaking in public, not more than once have I ever came back without a prize in hand. What am I today? Nothing.

I feel like some dumb dumb... there's no school on the 4th of April!!!! *faint* but stilll got debate training... just that if I go for amazing g(race) I also don needa potong markah... k, who cares about debate, i'm going for amazing g(race)... I'v waited for 1 year....

English public speaking is on Wednesday!! and I haven't even started memorizing!!! em, actually i just, 5 minutes ago, found a speech for myself... LAST MINUTE!! SO LAST MINUTE!! I hate myself... form 3 against form 4.... I er, dono wat to say...

I just PRAYYYYY, HOPEEEEE that I won't forget half way... that'll be soooo embarassing...*hides face*

Adventure camp! has ended... aw... so fast la.. I remember the time when i was looking forward to it haha!

Hm... evaluate... evaluate... I er.. ok wat... got la.. I think I lost my temper a few times, during classes or whatever la... lost temper at some stuff that I don usually lose temper to, for example a small kid?? It's kinda embarrassing thinking back now... he was just trying to help...
Stuff that i should have paid attention to... Neglected...
People that I should have paid more attention to*younger ones?*... Neglected
Why?? Selfish looo... thinking about having fun myself only...
It is time... to change... needa change... amen.. haha

Basically, I had fun la... EXCEPT, except for that jimmy, jimmy, jimmy,jimmy, woosh, woosh, jimmy,jimmy, jimmy, jimmy thing, Aunt May died tonight, did she died? Coffee, tea, coffee, tea, coffee, tea, what's this?? bla bla bla... it's fun la.. but not to play for the whole night ma. haiyooo.. Very pek chek wan you know!!

Well.. the cmdrs did an awesome job la in this camp. They came, went back and came again and stuff like tat, energy consuming, time consuming, money consuming, but still, they did it. Spent a night worrying whether we're alright under the rain, don't get to sleep and all. *they say wan la*
But.. yea... basically what i wanna say is THANK YOU CMDRsss!! Aw.. are you touched... *sniff*
Great cmdrs, great leaders, great friends.
Awesome people.

The countless meetings
The endless quarrels
The loads of pressures
The tears that were shed
What's the point?

The first time ever in my whole entire 15 years of life have I ever had meeting till 3am in the morning. 3am!! 3am!! Something that I would never forget. Everyone crowded in the meeting room, all tired and worned out, seniors lectured, president lectured, the first day of camp. (After sns, I went to school for society camp) I don wanna go for camp, I knew there would be loads of stuff, gossips, complaining, quarreling among the committees, I cried myself there, serious.

I thank God for so nicely placing a christian teacher with us. We invited her to stay over with us coz that's wat the school wants. We don't know her at all. And I really thank God for placing ppl like her in camp. Committee against committee, that's not suppose to happen. We're suppose to be one, united, not talking bad about each other against each's back. It's really very hard to be that salt and light. Even Christians around gossip, complain, talk bad like no one's business. I should'v prayed with her when I told her to stop all those nonsense... nvm... I'm so disappointed with myself, I'v been doing well, stepping out of all those stuff but still I lost control and I quarreled with some guy younger than me, we shouted at each other, really loud!! I nearly went up to him and punch him in the face... I apologized later...he apologized too... I hate myself... hate myself...hate myself... All that I did, just taking everything in, trying to be patient, really doesn't mean anything anymore after that quarrel...

Each and everyone of the committee cried after camp, during the heart to heart talk part... Each and everyone broke down. and now I have eyes like some goldfish plus all the nights where I hadn't really slept. Why did I put myself through all these?? Why am I going through all these nonsense stuff?? My friends don even have to...

Camp was horrible!

Don Hug me or I'll flood a classroom.

Every thing's a total mess!!
I give up

Get to know yourself better??

Took this test thingy that was on Lee Yee's blog coz I was too bored, not that I don have anything to do, but bcz i have too much stuff to do i don wanna care...

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
(I'm sweet?)

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
(Education IS, very important, but I don wanna study hard and learn as much as I can)

What is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped in a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve
(Mature? Not always. Reasonable? At times. Last one.. true.)

Choices, choices, choices... Life is FULL of choices!! and I HATE them!!

4th of April.. 4th of April... 4th of April... Why does everyone like the 4th of April?????
Skip school and join Debate training or skip school and join Amazing G(race)???
Either one, I'm going to skip school, but one, I don get my marks deducted but I'll have to bare a whole day of boring training; the other one, I get my marks deducted which will affect my placing in class but I get to have fun! !

T junction... Left or right??

What do you get when you add these stuff together?
Fever + maths = Headache, dizzyness and throwing up
Too involve + laziness = Scolding
xxxxxxx + studies = Trouble
Establishing something + trouble = Giving up
Gossip + friends = No where
Good influence + bad influence = Bad infuence
Too committed + too commited = Over loaded

so much more... can't bare with it...

Weeeee!! I'm home!! The good thing about my school is that we get to go home straight after you finish your exam, which is the latest by 12pm and you can hand in your papers after 40minutes if you like... That's the only good thing I like about the exam in my school...

Chemistry!! was E.A.S.Y!! I hope I can get 100!! nah... in my dreams la....
Chinese was a total mess I'm like the last, no 2nd last to hand in my paper... the classroom was empty except for me and another student... the clock was ticking like fast!! Time was running up!! Glucose running low... but... I finished the paper... hehe..

Aw.... I don get to join Amazing G(race).. I've waited for like one year since last year's race and how nice, I have school on the 4th of April... !@#$%^%$#@*@%.... jor... not fair!! not fair, not fair, not fair!!!

The sky is playing its drum... it's going to cry pretty soon...
while I'm stuck here at home, can't go to cell, can't go out...

Physcis was ok.. not as hard as I imagined... But objective is harder than subjective.. weird... I hope I can get an A... plssss plsss plsss...
English was ok too... One class, 3 different sets of papers according to standards, 6 classes... I wonder how the teacher manage to keep all the papers back and sort them out.. such a mess...

Tommorow's a Sunday!! yay.... ya... wow.. wee.. woo.. so what... it's going to be monday after that..then tuesday,then wednesday, then thursday, then friday, then saturday, then back to sunday again... I'm like going in cirlces... round and round and round and round and round and round and round and round and round and rounddddddddddddddd... k stop, I'm dizzy....

Neways... another blonde joke to keep that smile on your face... on your face ar.. on.. not off... on..

Q: Why did the blonde buy a brown cow?
A: To get chocolate milk.

Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! Haha! ok... i'm tired...

oh oh! A friend of mine is going to church tomorrow.. he invited himself thou... and he's from grace assembly... cheh.. haha! But i sure hope the other friend of mine which is also his friend * understand?* comes to church... ya..we'll see...

Everytime it touches the topic of reporduction or anything like tat, the guys in class will go WILD, and trust me, it's really really veryyy WILD!!
They will start laughing at the top of their lungs coz they'll be thinking about all sorts of nonsense stuff...Teasing one another, same sex, opposite sex,whosoever!!
Asking questions among one another, and!! the best part is, when alllll of their guy friends dono how to answer or don't know the answer... they'll pushhh one another here and there and then start the super childish thing "PAPER, SCISSOR, STONE". Whosoever loses, shall have to ask the teacher... *Can't they think of a better way?? or just askkk la.. shy shy all... when they do all those nonsense stuff, tease girls, play "catch", run around the classroom, knocking down chairs and tables, doing those disgusting stufff... don't see they feel shyyy also... cheh..*

Girls rule! Boys drool! ~ qoute Casovia, and I love it.. =P don you love it tooo.. aw.... actually, I'm saying it more to the guys in my class la...they don read my blog ma, that's why I write it here.. hahahahah!! don get all upset la k.. smileeee!! and the wholeee world will smile with you =) hehe...

FRIDAY's already the mid-first semester examination!!
And I still haven't study!! Pressure is in the air, not love... All those crazy people in class have started revising, doing previous years' test papers and all... But I'm still here, so lazy and slow, like er er a tortoise?? Are tortoises lazy?? Yea, guess so...
Friday:BM, History
Saturday:English,Physics
Tuesday:Chinese, Chemistry
Wednesday:Maths
Thursday:Biology, Geography

Sinking to the bottom of the ocean... Can't breathe...I hope I'll get all As.. hehe... dream on la...

School PMR tuition: Kemahiran hidup

Teacher stares at me... I stare at him too..
Teacher:"Hey, girl, you talk alot."
Me:"NO!"
Teacher:"Can't you stop talking?"
Me:"I'm not talking anymore. Look, the others are talking also!"
Teacher:"But you talk the loudest."
Me:"*speechless*"
Class:"*laughs*"

Aw!! Kena tembak by cikgu! How much more embarassing can it be??
Later..
Teacher:"eh, girl, since you like to talk, come here and read this in front of the whole class."
Me:*walks out and starts reading, once done, walks back."
Teacher:"Ok? Stop talking girl."

Later still..
Teacher:"Where's the monitor?? copy this girl's name."
Me:"WHY??!!"*was just sharing secrets among each other, super softly*faints**
Teacher:"I wanna give it to the principal."
I gave up, and chose to just shut up.
Well, he didn't manage to hand in my name also...too bad...*I sound so evil!* but i just can't help it.. I'm sorry.... But, I'm not noisy also!! well, i did talk, how can you not talk, right?? But I wasn't the noisest!! *am I?*haha! no idea...

Oh ya,I saw this blonde joke online... and it's.. haha.. funny!

I Want to Buy That
A blonde goes into a nearby store and asks a clerk if she can buy the TV in the corner.
The clerk looks at her and says that he doesn't serve blondes, so she goes back home and dyes her hair black.
The next day she returns to the store and asks the same thing, and again, the clerk said he doesn't serve blondes.
Frustrated, the blonde goes home and dyes her hair yet again, to a shade of red.
Sure that a clerk would sell her the TV this time, she returns and asks a different clerk this time.
To her astonishment, this clerk also says that she doesn't serve blondes.
The blonde asks the clerk, "How in the world do you know I am a blonde?"
The clerk looks at her disgustedly and says,"That's not a TV -- it's a microwave!"
Haha... funny! funny! I know you're laughing, or maybe smiling... hehe.. weee!! funny right... ^^

I get to blog again!! but still! my computer's somewhere out there...=(

Joke Alert! I bet you guys miss my joke rightttt... I'll answer for you.. right. =)

Love
Eve:"Adam, darling,do you love me?"
Adam:"Of course, Eve ,honey. Who else?"

Aw... so sweet.... hahaha!
Presented some skit today for BM drama... You know,sometimes, those dramas can be just so so irritating?? It makes no sense... and when you act and present the whole drama everyone will be of course looking, laughing and stuff like that but when you end, they'll go.. huh????!!!
Hey, don HUH us la... HUH the author laaaaa... I don understand the story too you know....

CF!! Not much responds from the "would you wanna join CF promo" ... handed in our report today... dono what's going to happen next, but I know that it will be rejected, coz that's what happens according to those people. I stil have hope that they will not reject this starting CF idea of ours, but... yea.. and I even have to keep telling those that are helping me to HANG ON!! HANG ON!!
Yea!! so HANG ON shall we then!!