The countless meetings
The endless quarrels
The loads of pressures
The tears that were shed
What's the point?

The first time ever in my whole entire 15 years of life have I ever had meeting till 3am in the morning. 3am!! 3am!! Something that I would never forget. Everyone crowded in the meeting room, all tired and worned out, seniors lectured, president lectured, the first day of camp. (After sns, I went to school for society camp) I don wanna go for camp, I knew there would be loads of stuff, gossips, complaining, quarreling among the committees, I cried myself there, serious.

I thank God for so nicely placing a christian teacher with us. We invited her to stay over with us coz that's wat the school wants. We don't know her at all. And I really thank God for placing ppl like her in camp. Committee against committee, that's not suppose to happen. We're suppose to be one, united, not talking bad about each other against each's back. It's really very hard to be that salt and light. Even Christians around gossip, complain, talk bad like no one's business. I should'v prayed with her when I told her to stop all those nonsense... nvm... I'm so disappointed with myself, I'v been doing well, stepping out of all those stuff but still I lost control and I quarreled with some guy younger than me, we shouted at each other, really loud!! I nearly went up to him and punch him in the face... I apologized later...he apologized too... I hate myself... hate myself...hate myself... All that I did, just taking everything in, trying to be patient, really doesn't mean anything anymore after that quarrel...

Each and everyone of the committee cried after camp, during the heart to heart talk part... Each and everyone broke down. and now I have eyes like some goldfish plus all the nights where I hadn't really slept. Why did I put myself through all these?? Why am I going through all these nonsense stuff?? My friends don even have to...

Camp was horrible!

Don Hug me or I'll flood a classroom.

Every thing's a total mess!!
I give up