"You’re going to love so much that you hate.

You will love someone so much, so painfully, that you’ll hate them for not always being there. You’ll need someone so much in your life, that you start detesting them as a coping mechanism, because you know one day they’ll stop loving you and you need the fall to be as painless as possible. Your feelings towards your friends are going to seesaw drastically, your heart as heavy as the anchor that drags down your friendship. Some days you’ll just feel massively unloved, and you blame yourself. Some days you’ll wake up with extreme anger in your heart and brain, anger at the ones that you think have abandoned you. Some days you think you’re the luckiest person in the world to have such loving people around you. The same people that you spend the rest of your time hating. Everyone is going to seem like the moon at one point in time — half lit up in glorious illumination and the other half shrouded in distrustful shadows. I am sorry that I do not have an instruction manual or crystal ball to tell you what mood will come next, and how to dissect it cleanly without spilling innocent blood. I can only tell you that it will be terrifyingly painful, and painfully terrifying."

- Deborah Lee