Being awake at 3am

How did it all come down to this, I can only wonder.
What triggers the mind to think what it does thus leading to the action we'll soon find ourselves taking, I have never understood. 
One day every thing can be just right and the next day, before you know it, smash! everything falls apart.
 
Why were happenings in the pass possible to take place yet further down the road nothing seems possible anymore and worst still, you start questioning about the real reason why it took place in the beginning.
It's extremely disheartening that relationships, something so attainable, is able to change like the weather.
Today it may be a sunny day. But the next day, a storm arrives. and when the storm's gone, the sun comes out to play again. Then the following week, a 6.9 earthquake. And when you finally rebuilt your home and everything, a 9.8 earthquake decides to hit again and this time, decides to bring along its best buddy, the tsunami. 
hah. never expect myself to survive something like that. ok. maybe i hope i'll survive. but in general, not everyone survives a sudden 9.8 magnitude earthquake and some really high tsunami. especially in Malaysia.
so if you were to be able to somehow predict the future and see all these coming, i don't believe anyone would not make any safety precautions. i mean of course in my text, i'm not really talking about life and death.
but isn't it the same? if you know something bad or unpleasant's gonna happen in the future, wouldn't you do what you have to do. or perhaps do what you think is the right thing to do at that point of time to prevent further destruction in the future? 

well, I would. 
and even thou a 9.8 earthquake and a really high tsunami may have been wrongly predicted and never will happen in the future, at least doing what was right at that point of time thou it may hurt, affirms the safety of the people i care. and tat's what matters most.


it's 3 in the morning and to reread wat i just wrote, i know i'm not making sense.
but i'll just post it anyway since it's been a million years since i last did.
so if you do happen to read this, just read and forget


cheers