On a day like this

It's been a tough year and there are still things I'm trying to get over with.

How can I start the year right when I can't even get right with God or myself.

Indeed I've grown alot but I've changed alot too only to deny it.

I was and am still searching for what's lost since then...

Hoping to be what I once was again and not what I am now..

to smile like i used to and to love Sundays like I once did...

One day someday I'll find what I've lost...

but "Never one day only once upon a time"

so I'm not putting much hope either...

Yet among everything that has happened...

I'm still grateful and thankful for all that He has done through out the year...

for picking me up when I fall..

for helping me in everything that I do...

and for placing awesome ppl along the way that has blessed me again and again...

I pray that it'll be a great year ahead.

7 hours...

HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

Exactly one more month...is it even gonna be sweet...

Very pathetic.

School till 12.15pm tomorrow.

Pretending hurts.

I keep having nightmares, only realizing it's reality, my reality.

Here I am sitting here, reading quotes again..

Existence without hope,
a flower without petals.
forever drowning...

no splendor left to reveal,
no color left to illustrate
the sun, a constant reminder
hope without any existence

Isn't it ironic?
We ignore the ones who adore us,
Adore the ones who ignore us,
Love the ones that hurt us,
& hurt the ones that love us.

How interesting...






and now my Kenny G songs play.. after christmas.. :(

and now...

I dont even know how i really feel!!!

Why doesn't crying help? It'll be so easy den.. I will just cry.. i'm good at that.. sigh..

YOUTH CAMP....

ya, youth camp...

step on Sara... haha tat's not my leg....      

I like this :)

From jon & ally :)                                                      

Camp was great but tiring especially that on-going game...

Taking all our precious only little break time....

But overall it was good...

Great job committees :)

I hate my fringe.
Brother: haha! So ugly!!
Sister: mummy you see, the side, like buddha..
ouch. that hurts!

School till 5.00pm tomorrow..

Pathetic.

Worn out.

YET

In that sense, I.want.to.be.normal.

Neways, we went to 1 Utama today...

Ever first day out the foursomes had this whole hols plus a perfect Aussie driver, who, took some other route bcz he saw the traffic police ;)

but den again still had to pass through traffic police on the way back hahaha...

You should see how he drives.. fail.com :P

The Aussie sheep was shopping...

so we decided to... snap a picture!               

The ugliest match of clothing ever! hahahahah..

2 pieces of clothing i would NOT wear out together hahahahahahha

the shirt writes "not 2night" hahaha... so i guess you can only wear it at night haha (ok, tat doesn't make sense)
but anyway deb's one is nice :)

WE WATCHED AVATAR in 3D!!

NO MORE PRINCESS AND THE FROG!!!

HIP HIP HOORAY!!!!

hahahahahahaahahah nonsense..

but ya.. the show was nice.. 3 hours was kinda long thou... plus that 3D specs.. quite dizzyfying hahaha

and not forgetting the big improvement of our fellow Aussie driver...

He got to 1U in 40 minutes!! not 2 and the half hours this time!!!  :)

Brilliant!! haha

lastly, the moral of the day is....

Just hang WH. Don't even step into WH. or at least the one in 1U

yao mat ye gam dai but liu ze...gan zek zao hai but ji so wai...fat sai kuong, fat sai din..hai em hai ngo dei qin sai him zoh lei dei xin...chou lun ba bai..

ish... smack! kick! Roars!!

*exhales* ok now.. i need to.... do something very important..

Watch dramas!

tata!

I.am.special.

just been. had been. just had. still is. will be. avoiding everything

Avatar turned into two frogs, an alligator & a firefly ;)

Lazzzyyyy

I feel so laazzyyyy

I Drama-ed through out the whole day

annddd the internet's really a failure... argh

The only thing it's able to do with its all so slow connection is for me to watch my dramas..

and that only...

I can't surf the nett, I can't sign in to msn, I can't do anything except, watch my dramas...

I'v always been in front of the computer but I'm only able to log in to msn at like what... 10pm?? argh

ok, nvm, i can live with dramas alone...

Neways...

I think my brain is collecting dusts and cobwebs...

Hmmmm....

I don't know how to continue...

shall just return to my dramas :)

tata!

fail.com

This is the fail.com "educational trip" (lawatan sambil belajar) to KLCC or you can say the whole of KL report.

2:00pm: Off to KLCC

4.30pm: reaches KLCC

4.30pm minus 2.00pm = 2 and the half hours :)

2 and the half hours from Klang to KLCC *thumbs up*

The GMA knows the way best.. right? ;) *he passed his compass :P

nah.. still did a great job...never been there.. use GPS simply langgar :) impressive impressive :P

Delay abit here abit there.. no time for movie... awww...

sooo.. we explored every floor... walk from the front to the back...  (Do I get like "finish-walking-the-complex merit for this?)

Best part, best part...

We visited some Art Gallery of dono wat Raja Shalalalala* I forgot his name* artist which we don't understand at all what his drawings and statues meant but just to kill time.. evil us.. haha
but we did learn that drawing with pen on paper is called pen atas kertas in BM hahahahha

and and... some puzzle shop... den the book shop or izit library which we didn't go in....

plus lots of "educational" stuff that can only be verbally "reported"

on top of that.. thanks to you who made this trip all so educational :P

For the whole entire day they treated Deb and me as "little children"

"Kanak-kanak sekarang kami di Federal, di left you(ya, left you) ada dot dot di kanan kamu ada dot dot"

Arghhh.. roars! Why did it ended up as an educational trip??
and lots of embarrassing stuff happened!! *cries*

At least 5 times I felt so embarrassed :( boohoo!

6.00pm: Meet Mr Gap for dinner...

buttttt dinner was awesomeeee even thou it was so FULLfilling that I had trouble walking

andddd this time the GMA did well coz he passed the job to the Master of Food ;) who did a great job in ordering food :P

Hmmmm.. what else... well.. oh ya.. it was a very healthy outing too becauseeee

we took 1) car 2) monorail 3) LRT & 4) feet

and someone just has to take the escalator even when everyone's using the stairs*shakes head*

That's almost it.. i think... without the details-details haha ;)
10:50pm: Home :)

So basically to conclude the whole "educational trip"

Drive to KLCC - walk here and there *sesat* - Dinner! - Fountain without the fountain*haha* - Home :)

I like it :)

Throw lots of thank you at the GMA and Mr Gap andddd Kelsey andddd Debbie :)

and tat's the end of my report :)

and I got my results one day earlier! which made today a wonderful day :)
what a long report haha

Cheers!

I don't know where to start :)

so I got this msg from a friend...

somehow they checked their results already which supposedly is to be announced at 9am tomorrow as stated on the web...

1) Chase my sister AWAY from the computer

2) and obviously, I CHECK my results!!

3) thennnnnnn I simply CAN'T log in!!!

4) after so many attempts......anddd help from friends....  :)

this is what I saw... first

符号/Symbol	成绩/Result
A	特优/Distinction
B	优/Credit
C	佳/Good
D	已达要求水平/Having attained required level
E	未达要求水平/Not having attained required level
X	缺席/Absent
-	无选考/Not taking

So i saw RESULTS, C and I saw D and i FREAKED out... was crazy scrolling all over the page

and then I found out haha.. that's not my results :P

Finally...and yes finally...

I saw my results :)

my heart stopped beating for a moment but i didn't die thou.. too bad la if you wanted me dead :P haha

Guess what.. I got A for arts!! And so we were told rarely ppl get A for arts... *happy!*

5)Gives speech: I would like to thank my teachers, my parents, my friends, everyone who have supported me all the way and most importantly I want to thank God for helping me pull through that whole 2months or more of torture. It have been indeed the longest days ever in MY history. All glory and praise be to God! yay! clap clap!

6) And so maybe I could have done better but I choose to be grateful :)

7) Satisfied :)

8) Beds :)

before that... i need to STOP staring at my results :)

nite world :)

Roars!
Itchhhyyyyyyy!!!
VERY VERY ITCHHHHYYYYY!!!
stupid rashes :(
                                 ugly
                         ugly so so ugly
                    ugly so so so so ugly
                ugly so so so so so so ugly
            ugly so so so so so so so so ugly
        ugly so so so so so so so so so so ugly
    ugly so so so so so so so so so so so so ugly

ugly so so so so so so so so so so so so so so ugly

    ugly so so so so so so so so so so so so ugly        
        ugly so so so so so so so so so so ugly
             ugly so so so so so so so so ugly
                 ugly so so so so so so ugly
                     ugly so so so so ugly
                         ugly so so ugly
                                ugly

Get them off me now pleaseeeeeeeee *cries*

I haven't weigh myself... shall do it now :)

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seems like it's still the same

should I be happy or not?

hmmm... ok who cares...

Debbie's shopping with women now ;)

Have fun debbie! :P

Assignments i don't wanna start doing...

best part, I can't find the instruction paper...

cheese and whiskers, how now brown cow!!

I don't even know what to do :(

I pray that they will pop out later, in jesus name, amen :)

Drama time :)

Christmas Shopping!!!

Great, I've, no, we've been planning to go shopping for so long who remembers!

Nowadays, it's kinda impossible to go shopping with less than em let's say 200? because a skinny itself costs Rm300 *faints*

plus I hate it when we have to work within the budget :(

It's either you have this or you have that

why? because not enough to cover!! boohoo :(

I wish that I have an unlimited credit card

where I can swipe and sign all I want without paying a single cent...

Then, I can have everything and anything I want..*evil laughs*

How nice right... if eh if.. if clause, if clause..haha

Neways, "sweet christmas" was really sweet.. what a diabetic night!

I ate errrr 2 nuggets, 2 tiny choc muffins & 1 hash brow...only :)

I think I'm having fever :(

Now it's Carissa left that ain't sick

nite :)

btw, wat's wrong with my songs?? 
where's my kenny G :(
and I got an unexpected box of chocolate.. thank you :)

Let it snow, let it snow, let it snowwwwww

It's Christmas time again!!

Don't you just loooovvvveee Christmas?? :)

Parties, songs, beribboned gifts,
Silver bells that tinkle,
Christmas trees and ornaments,
Colorful lights that twinkle...

It gives the feeling to fall in love....

Everything's just so wonderful....

Don't you think so? :)

I love this song

Titled: One person dinner (Direct translation that is)

Kinda get what the song's talking about yet? :)

It gives me the Christmas yet somehow lonely feel

which in someway or other speaks to me & somehow resembles to me? haha

emo eh haha.. i know :)



When I fall in love with a song I listen to them for 83626103283462436754 times..

Especially those that speaks what my heart speaks :)

and weirdly.. i don't seem to get bored of them :)

Someone's finally home...
Happy BKT :)

16.12.2009

Been rotting at home since mission trip...

Repeats the same daily routine...

Wake up for lunch... do nothing... takes a very long nap... wake up for dinner... goes online... off to bed

and then it goes around again...

I know I have holiday assignments but I'm too lazy to start...

Just found out that UEC results are coming out on the 16th and PMR on the 20th I think..

*breaths in breaths out & freaks out!!!*

I'm finally feeling the tension and pressure..

"I don't care" attitude was what I was having the whole time and I just realise no matter how much I'm telling myself that I don't care..

I do care... and I care alot...

I don't think I have the guts to check my results when that day comes....

In love with Linda Chung's songs... :)

2:45am... I'm suppose to be sleeping :)

12:42am... what am I doing here? :)

I rewatched the show at the bottom for almost 7 times now :)

But i only rewatch errrr 13 out of 20 episodes of them every time..

watching 13 episodes for 7 times..

hahahahah.. insane!! insane!!

But it's a nice show *melts*

my favourite actress acting of course nice la.. right? hehe :)

Anyway.......

I'm still mourning over my black skinnies.. :(

Anyone care to give me RM300 to buy the skinnies? *weeps*

I just remembered...

I ate a fat bbq-ed worm in missions...

EW!!! IT so does not taste like chicken even thou i've been telling myself it's chicken it's chicken it's chicken..

How can Grace Wong eat 6 of those bbq worms + one alive?!

I like Kenneth bcz he's the only guy tat did not eat the worm...

better than ppl who's trying to be macho that's why makan worm..

booooohoooo... 

oh well, oh well, oh well...

I. Ate. A. Worm

ok, half of it.. I spat the other half out..

it's just too gross.. *vomits*

I guess I'll bed off now :)

I've been sleeping a whole lot...

feeling so fat..

I think I'll weigh myself tomorrow :)

A post that was suppose to be posted up yesterday but bcz of some unforeseen circumstances...

It's the time of the year...

where my aunt comes in with Esprit 50% voucher which you can purchase up to RM5000 of whatever Esprit product...clothes, handbags, etc etc...

yet sadly...

my uncle passed away and he's suppose to be discriminate(is it what you call it?) today yesterday..

It's actually my first time seeing someone being pushed into the fiery furnace and be burn to ashes...

It hurts alot...

You just have to imagine someone you closely love & adore just "poof!" disappear from the face of the earth in fire..

neways.. I purposely went to shop in Esprit yesterday the day before yesterday, wrote down the product number and all to ask my aunt to help me purchase it since I'm not able to go today yesterday :( and guess what...

NO SIZE! :(

Actually, somewhere deep down inside of me has already knew that I won't be able to get that super nice RM300 black skinnies for RM180 (this year only 40% discount.. dumb dumb) bcz..

I knew it la.. things just doesn't work out that nicely...

I'm very sad now... disappointed too...

that's it... goodbye black skinnies :( with that super nice white belt :( *bursts in tears*

Well.. we went to Aeon after the whole "burning ceremony" and had "high tea" at that VIVO American pizza and something something restaurant... not bad eh :)

I had fattening cheese cake and errrr some mocha thingy :)

She happy fellow had the whole cup of 100plus

My brother and his ice-cream.. too bad he didn't get his NZ natural... coz my dad says he's the only one that wanted to eat ice-cream when we wanted something else.. *evil laughs* good for him!

But it ain't that bad also eh haha..

During the few days of em.. mourning? wake service? whatever la... it was some Hakka and Cantonese speaking class or lesson or whatever for me..

My uncle's wife's like speaking hakka to me all the time where I have to kill brain cells to answer her...

and some other relatives were speaking cantonese which leaves me in a state where I mix both of the dialects together... tongue tying experience I would say ;)

Nevertheless, I learnt alot! :)

My rashes still ain't healing...

I look like i have leprosy :(

and I was wondering....

It's funny how friends can become total strangers...

Second post for the day...
It's 12:07am and I'm reading quotes...

emotionally disturbed I would say...

Laughed when i saw this when it's like some heartbreaking quote haha



Heartbreak Quotes

This is kinda cool

Friendship Quotes

and this is way cool

Girly Quotes

hahahhahaha

Saw even more awesome quotes, but guess i'll save them...

who knows.. maybe one day.. they'll be of good use and till then it won't be a surprise anymore :)

Time to hit the bed! not bcz i want to but bcz i have nothing to do..

and gosh did it just hit me that I could have watch my dramas...

i actually forgot about them...i actually did...

impressive.. very impressive..

Nite world :)

It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home 

I've had my run and I'm home!!!

Missions was awesome :)

slipped, fell, got cut, rashes and a jab somewhere near the butt bcz of that :(

and it still ain't getting any better.. i want my hands and legs back... boohooo, so ugly!! :(

It was a great time of fellowship too! not forgetting "men fellowship" also ;)

Got closer to quite some ppl especially that GAP guy who fell asleep standing *salutes*

Xin Ee was a total hoohaa! She's the total opposite of  Tzi Li..

Wait till you see the video where she sang "cant lee(live)" in.. She'll blow you off ;)

Long houses were awesome!! Food were awesome!! The people there were awesome!!

Everything was plain awesome!!

and i song leaded with cas for the first time :)

We also sang in the airport!! how cool right :)

Really glad that I went for missions this year :)

Blessed and blessed :)

Slept at 4am, woke up at 4pm :)

You know what's the first thing I did when I woke up this afternoon?

BINGO! Drama time!! and I'm satisfied now :)

MSN Is still not signing in... screw the dumb internet! Roars!!

Someone's coming back this Sunday :)

Have a great week ppl!!