She's little miss perfect and I'm everything but perfect


I often find myself wondering into my own world nowadays
Not talking more than I usually do...
They'll say I'm emo...
Well, I dono... Is that counted as emo??
Sometimes it's not whether you want to or not it's just as if you don't have the strength to carry on,
as if everything's falling apart, nothing to hold on to, nothing to cling on...
I hate this feeling, it makes me feel so tiny, so worthless, so helpless...
Everyone is with everyone while it's so hard for you to blend in eventhou it seems from the other person's view that you ARE in...
And if you're not, you're just being emo...

As if every person you know is drifting away, furthur and furthur out of view...

The people you look up to don't really seem to care...

With all the feeling of emptiness and loneliness getting over you
and where your darkest imaginations start coming in
It's terrifying just to think about them...
I don't know and don't understand why all these are getting over me...
I want my life back
I want myself back
I leave every important stuff unattended to only to worry at the latest minute
I keep no notice to things I know I'm suppose to take notice of
I leave my homework undone, which is so not me
I don't care about my marks, my homeworks, my folios, my school, my life.
The only thing I'm getting good at is to find excuses to comfort myself, to cover up for the things that I should be doing but not doing...
I drift, drift motionlessly...
Why are all these happening

I want my life back