My mouse wasn't working...fixed it
Now my keyboard's not working...
Ishhhh.. smack smack smack!!
I chased my brother away and had the laptop to myself instead...
He threw his temper and I threw mine...
Don't care....

MARCHING!!!
WE MARCHED UNDER THE 2pm SCORCHING SUN!!
There was one obvious mistake due to someone not really paying attention to the command
but well, we can't blame it all on that person right...
I think we did great....
So there's no need for a big fuss k people..
we still have chance!!
come on, we're not THAT badddddd!!!
We did pretty well!!
Smile =)

Later at 3.20pm.. we walked to the stadium, had practice and den walked back at 5.45pm..
Stopped at the playground opposite Convent and had fun trying to be a kid again...
We sat on the slides... Crawled through the tubes or whatever you call it... Had fun swinging... Had fun running around.. sitting on the see-saw and doing whatever that we can to feel like a small kid again...

I'm so tannnn... so very the dark..... Whyyyyyy la whyyyyyy

Btw, to all you kononnya best friends ar...classmates ar..
Yeaaa.. i say he's handsome.. i always do...
He memang handsome wat...
Class monitor, prefect, tall some more...
I like... cannot arrrrr...
Nah, I wrote it here!!
Take that... =P

It's been a longgggggg and tiring day
I started daydreaming, hoping that I was at home as soon as the bell for first period rang...
So much for always getting top in class.. hahahaha
I dropped dropped dropped wei!!!
From 2nd place to like wat... sshh cannot tell, too embarrassing...
Newayssssss...
Marching was... em...Tiringggg!!
Under the 3 o'clock sun!! I'm not tan enough izit.. not dark enough ar huh... so black d still want me to stand under the sun.... dumb dumb....
I can't even see my face in the dark... *faints*
Anyway, you should see howww jam pack it is after school!!!
You see ppl marching EVERYWHERE!!! It's so hard to even find a spot that's sheded...

Tomorrow's the day..
MARCHING COMPETITION!!!
Our formation is very simple, nothing big and fancy but we still can't finish in time..
or we CAN finish in time, but it's JUST in time... 65 seconds...
Scaryyyyyy... later if the cmdr shouts the command wrongly, then semula.. ha ha ha.
FINISH laaaaaaaaa... I laugh i tell you.. haha

I saw a tall and tan guy riding a bike in pink shorts today...*giggles*

WE SHOPPED AT 100 km/h
hahahahahahahahahahahhahaha
SERIOUSLY!!!
We had anniversary meeting till er.. almost 4pm..
Carissa has to be home by 6.30pm..
coz all of our parents are going for a wedding dinner and we're all appointed to babysit the younger ones at home respectively...*faint*
so we had to shop fast... so sad right...
like those aunties you know..
go pasar pagi wan ar... in a rush those kind..
walk really fast...really really fast..
but thank God we got wat we need..
and guess wat.. we still had like 1 hour?? or something la...
so we went to makan...
and den wait for Julian to fetch us home..
How nice of him you know...
Actually perlu cancel d.. coz no transport back and maybe no transport there also actually..
then he said he wanna fetch us there...
awww..... our life saver!! hahahahaha
thank you thank you.. hehe
Well.. carissa still went home late.. haha..

Gosh.. I'm still eating... I'm eating ice-cream...
and it's like almost 10pm...
this is so fattening...
ok, cool..
I kept it back in the fridge..
hahahahaha
I shall have it tomorrow after 1 hour and 40 minutes of marching practice in school..
hahahaha...

It's Monday tomorrow
MONDAY! MONDAY!
ew.. i hate mondayssss...
i'm still in the Sunday mood...
i haven't touch my hw, haven't pack my bag, haven't do this, haven't do that..
lazzzzyyy la... like you!! haha..
you haven't do your stuff also right..
read blogs all ar.. hehe.. nah.. joking...

Well... Blessed one more week ahead!!
Anniversary's 6 more days to go :)

P.S: I want a chokerrrrrrr!!!

Falling for you by Alarice

Is it real
what I'm feeling?
or is it just a mirage
cos in a moment your single touch can warm and charm my heart
It's the way you laugh
and the way you smile
that's got me and i think that i'm falling
and i'm going under
yeh I'm
Chorus:
falling freely, falling freely, falling freely in love
yeh, I'm falling freely, falling freely, falling freely in love, with you
I hope this is forever
A lifetime ahead of us
and i'll give you my hand if you promise
to love me till death do us part
I'm thinking that we could be in love
cos my heart's beating faster and i'm losing my breath
I think I'm *chorus*
Bridge:
Fifty years from now
I'll still be holding your hand
and i'll remember the day we fell in love....

I didn't realise that the words were so.. em..how to say...er.. ok nvm..
but the song's nice...

Lost that feeling...

Remembered that day when you said that how happy I should be coz even thou I'm not in but at least I have somebody to think about...
While you don't even have someone to go crazy over..
I'm here to accompany you now...
I'll go crazy over my books... and maybe some other stuff
but no living creature...
I love being where I am now...
Don't you? :)

Gosh.. what's with yesterday's lovey post...
Neways...
MARCHING FEVER!!!
Every class in school has marching practice almost every single day coz sports day's coming up!!
Our class won first almost every single competition oookkkk...
we CAN marchhh i tell you...
Rmbred last year when we buka-ed barisan... FUYOH!! *thumbs up*
Our formation was awesomeeeeee....
This year not much of formation thou but it's sill presentable...

So long since I last had THAT feeling...hahaha*yi.. gelinya*
yet... sweeetttt...hehe...

CHEMISTRY and MATHS test tomorrow!!
so deaddddd... hehe... bye now! Miss me each and everyone of you... haha

Living in my own world...
It's so sad that you can only fantasize...
9 years... 7 years... same year!! haha.... funnyyy yet somehow sweettttt..

The longest distance in life is not being unable to see you but having you right in front of my eyes and yet you don't know that I fell for you...

The secret

You told me yours,
and I told you mine...
It's really amazing how best friends have that sort of click, that thing that binds...
We laughed at each other...
We understood each other...
It was one of the deepest thing in my life...
and finally someone knew and that person was you...
You heard and you laughed
You told me I'm not alone..
coz somewhere deep in your life,
it's also happening to you...
It's really amazing to have a friend,
someone that understands and goes crazy with you...
someone that cares if we fell for the same person...
someone that would go shopping with you and get all crazy about some tiny stuff
Someone that will tell you who's her crush
someone that will gossip with you (oops)
Someone that will tell you that you look ugly in that hair cut
someone that will tell you you're fat when you're fat
someone that will never stab you at the back but right infront coz tat's what best friend does
Someone like you that will share what you just shared with me
and someone like me that will share what i just shared with you
We felt relieved after letting it out
Finally someone in this world knows about
Maybe it's all just a mirage, and we should wake up from our dreams
However, miracles do happen and I'm waiting for one...
someone to share, someone to care...
but just the two of us...

Lost myself... Maybe in the trash...

Skipped lunch...

The top debater in class that won herself scholarship in HELP uni and at the same time sitting at the back of me was complaining that she has 45kg of fats...

and she's going to skip dinner, skip breakfast, not eat anything at all..

aduiiiiii... i think she debates too much... fat fat fat... shudup laaaa..

Yesterday was father's day!!

Went to Plaza Shah Alam's Thai Restaurant beside Concorde for dinner!!!

IT was totally awesome, tongue blasting!! haha

That's a rose.. i guess..haha

He has he

She has she

Me... lonesome..

Awesome lonesome.. *sob sob*

My Aunt's "Middle East" concept bedroom

Nice... but I would prefer my cousin's room...

or the master bed room... awesomeness...

Well.. that's my spot.. "The Psychiatrist Spot"..

It's real comfy you'll fall asleep..

Life as I knew it...

The dull and grey sky...

We weren't that bad after all..
At least we still have drinks and movies, while the other classes have nothing...
12 subjects...excluding BM and BI oral... or else it'll be 14 subjects..
I only got an average of 84.13...
Should I be thankful that it's still an A??

Push through my limits...

To all the dumb pimples, get off my face! This is PRIVATE PROPERTY!!!!

It's Report Card Day tomorrow!!
I'm in charge again.. *sob sob*
But this time no, nothing... No food, no photos... Only got drinks.. hehe.. paiseh la..
I only got noticed on like wat, Tuesday??
Maybe play some movies la...*who wanna bring laptop?? I can't*
I can't find people to sponsor food...sadddd
Class fund's left with only RM198.90... I bought two tongs of air also RM60 d....
You know la.. some people... use class fund also cho lun ba bai... not like all your money right...
kkk..nvm nvm...
soooooo... wat i wanna say is...
DON COME AND COMPLAIN TO ME TOMORROW THAT WE DONT HAVE FOOD!!
wanna eat right.. come, i teach you...
walk out of the classroom, take the stairs or the lift 4 stories down and walk to the canteen and buy some for yourself..
and guess wat, the best part is, you get to choose wat you like to eat!! So many choices...
No worries, no worries.... Eat all you want... and of course, pay for wat you eat...
Yay! Clap clap!
Problem Settled...
I shall now continue to drown myself in music....

Things may come and go
The next will be mine again

Found a cd my aunt gave me for christmas last year
Didn't really paid attention the last time I spun the cd ~ Songs for a season by Alarice

Eventhou there's only 6 songs in the entire cd
but each song some how spoke to me in ways...

I'm drifting furthur and furthur way from You
Walking ahead but blinded by distractions that pull me aside
My strength is exhausted and all my feelings have all but slowly slip away
I'm gonna come back to You

Colour, Alarice

Where do I start
Do I start from, where it all began?
No it doesn't make any sense
This feeling or the freedom i have
See i'm not the same anymore
Since you walked right through the doors
And i just can't explain it
And i just can't contain it
Chorus:
The moment that you walked into my life
What a pleasant surprise
When you opened my eyes
The moment that you
Stepped into my life
When the world was black and white
You put the colour back into my life
Yeh you
So now i'll say i'v got the joy
Down deep in my heart
Though it might seem foolish
Might seem stupid
Why would I care?
See I'm not the same anymore
Since you walked right through the doors
And I just can't explain
And I just can't contain it
And words just can't seem to express
How I feel inside
From the moment that you
The moment that you walked in my life.

Btw, she's a christian =)

Blogging in class...
We're supppose to get onto news websites around the wolrd and list three top news topics in each webite (including one on sport). Write the topics and present out front...
Boring...
it's 8.20am...
9.05am's coming in a while...
The bell just rang...
chao...

HinHua station, 6.19fm (dumb name)

I'm "DJ-ing" tomorrow...
aww man.. tat means I'll have to skip recess...
Come on... I'm suppose to go up there and talk into the mic in a humid room which has no ventilation at all, in front of a dumb dumb machine playing some dumb dumb songs...and they don't tambah my markah or give me any gum gum...
It's school, what songs do you expect to come out of the speakers...right..
Now guess wat's on one of the lists tomorrow... "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" song... wat the...
Some guy picked that song to thank a teacher... em... irrelevant my friend...
Anyways... on air, 9.05am....
Can't wait till it's over...

Interesting stuff that happened in class:
Today's the "copy and paste" day...
Sejarah folio was dued today...
While Geography, tomorrow..
As always, the rajin ones would have already done theirs by now but it's the other way round for the not-so-rajin ones, especially, the guys...eh, it's true ok...
So, as you know, or as I know, the laptop is a very common device you see students carrying in my school coz we always have to do powerpoint presentations and stuff through the lcd,
andd... of course.... lazy people carry their pendrives around especially at times like this..
to do wat??
COPY AND PASTE THE SOFTCOPY OF THE RAJIN PEOPLES' WORK of course!!
Well, I'm not lazy so I don't carry a pendrive around...
But my softcopy is coming through the internet...
Wayyyyyy cooler don't you think.... hahahahahahahahahahahha

Love is in the air...
Can you feel it??
I feel lotsa of it, but not my love la...
so sad right... sigh.. nvm la..
It's Someone else's loveeee.. tsk tsk
I think I needa start charging(charging as in charging for money not turbo charge, charge for war kinda charge, some people think it's that charge *faint*) for love consultancy even thou I dono why they keep coming to me, not like I'm some expert...
But if I do so I'm gonna earn big time.. haha
NAh(with the hand motion), just kidding...
I'm sweet and nice, wont do such kinda stuff...
I'm more than willing to hear them come telling me all their lovey dovey stuff...
It's kinda entertaining at times.. haha
L.O.V.E loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! He loves her! He loves her! lalalalalalaaaaaaaa

Holiday's officially over!!
It's the first day of school and I'v been fishing in class already...
Thank God almost every single person in class didn't finish our holiday assignment for maths so I didn't have to stay back during recess to copy homework haha...
I'm kinda glad school has reopen...
I feel better now...
Tuesday tomorrow... On duty again...
I hope there won't be any stuff that I'll need to report on air so I can go for my recess!! yay!
It's all about FOODDDDDD you knowwwwww

She's little miss perfect and I'm everything but perfect


I often find myself wondering into my own world nowadays
Not talking more than I usually do...
They'll say I'm emo...
Well, I dono... Is that counted as emo??
Sometimes it's not whether you want to or not it's just as if you don't have the strength to carry on,
as if everything's falling apart, nothing to hold on to, nothing to cling on...
I hate this feeling, it makes me feel so tiny, so worthless, so helpless...
Everyone is with everyone while it's so hard for you to blend in eventhou it seems from the other person's view that you ARE in...
And if you're not, you're just being emo...

As if every person you know is drifting away, furthur and furthur out of view...

The people you look up to don't really seem to care...

With all the feeling of emptiness and loneliness getting over you
and where your darkest imaginations start coming in
It's terrifying just to think about them...
I don't know and don't understand why all these are getting over me...
I want my life back
I want myself back
I leave every important stuff unattended to only to worry at the latest minute
I keep no notice to things I know I'm suppose to take notice of
I leave my homework undone, which is so not me
I don't care about my marks, my homeworks, my folios, my school, my life.
The only thing I'm getting good at is to find excuses to comfort myself, to cover up for the things that I should be doing but not doing...
I drift, drift motionlessly...
Why are all these happening

I want my life back

Ohayo, Ohayo, Ohayo, Ohhh!!

I'm back!! There's no place like home...
Camporama was awesome!!
It seems like eternity waiting for it to come but in a blink of an eye, it's already over...
I shared this little dome with 9 other people and tons and tons of black ants...
Almost everynight everyone of them except Cmdr Sheila and the awesome foursome but then was threesome gang will be on the phone talking to their own respective ahem ahem till 3am in the morning....*faints*
I LOVE OUR CITY!! IT's like sooooo cool!!
I LOVE THE DRUMS!! It's also sooooo cool!! The rhythm is still like stuck in my head...
EVERYTHING IS PLAIN COOL!!! except for the ants on my bed...
Salute all the cmdrs...
Alot of stuff happened during camp....
At the moment, I'm so filled with stuff... Processing...
It's kinda tiring to always get stuck in the middle....right, smack in the middle....
I'm like some toy or gadget they use to reach their goal and once they get to their goal they'll just throw me away or something...
Ouch...
Anyways, among all the cities, except our own city, I like INDIA the most...
I love their yells, their songs &their mr nice guy mayor...
I kept singing this "change-the-bulb-song" until everyone started singing also.. haha.. I'm an influencer u know..hahahahaahha
"The bulb is spoiled, change it
The bulb is spoiled, change it
Pat the dog! Pat the dog! (x2)
Now let us make some noise!
Now let us make some noise!
INDIA, INDIA!!!"

this one's also very nice
"Hu, ha, dei.... what are we good for? absolutely everything! Hu, ha, deiiii"
"I.N.D.I.A, India, the bomb (keep repeating all you want haha)"
"Singh is king (keep repeating all you want also)"
"HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY??
Oh we feel so good, oh we feel so good, oh we feel so, oh we feel so, oh we feel so good, ha ha ha!"
YAYYYYYYYY!!! hahahahahahahahhah

Japan's yell and song also very awesome k.. just tat everyone's so dead... but who cares, we won the City Synergy Championship.. Yay!!

I almost couldn't make it for camporama...
And lotsa stuff happened a few weeks before...
I really really thank God that I still made it in the end and came back in one piece!! yay!!
Except for that dumb fellow who elbowed my cheek during frisbee and left me with a blueblack on the face, i covered it with my hair for your info... and my slippar broke! yay! finally!!

All in all, it was awesome and fun I had indeed...
Cmdrs awesome, rangers awesome, semua pun awesome...
J.A.P.A.N,Japan the bomb!

It's over! It's over! It's over!!!
Wheeeee!!
I finished my dumb dumb Yamaha Fundamental exam today!!!
My practical was at 9.30am!!
I was the first candidate!!!
My aural~the hearing then writing the whole full piece of song thingy was at 12.40pm...
I almost fell asleep waiting...
My dad brought me to Subang Parade after my practical to er.. makan masa dan makan food..
I saw soooooo many stuff!!!
All of a sudden, my I-WANT-THIS list extended to a length that I can't even measure...
I saw this very nice bag, sport wear, hoodie, purse, shoes, heels, dress, phone, walkman, shirt, t-shirt, shorts, skirt, ahhh!!! banyaknya!!
I normally don't look at handsome guys coz i only like to look at pretty girls but today I saw this super leng cai!! So ang mor-ish... and so so er.. so... leng cai!!!!! *faints*
okk.. tat was so.. hiao.. alah.. I don't usually do tat.. nvm...
Piano exam:IT WAS SOOOO EASY BUT DEN I STILL SCREW IT UP!!!
WHYYYY???!!!!
I hope some miracle happens
I wanna and needa PASS!!

Camporama tomorrow!!

Worry is interest paid on trouble before it comes due.

Tuesday's just TWO days away...
I can't breathe....

I saw the sun
I saw the moon
But where are the stars
I'm still grounded
All my life I've NEVER been grounded
This is all so wrong, so out of place, so inappropriate, so frustrating...
How do someone abuse their freedom??
I don't think I violated any you-abused-your-freedom law or rules or regulations, or whatever...
Trisha is just an innocent child.. tsk tsk
I really want and seriously need my freedom back...
I'm like some dog (I can't think of any animal that's more decent haha..I'm definitely, a hundred percent, NOT, a dog..) tied to a ledge(do you call that a ledge? I don't rare dogs, so it's acceptable la that I don't know haha)...
I'm suffocating...seriously...

GUESS WHAT!!!
I'v been stuck at home for 5 days already!!
Unbelievable... Time fliessss...
And I didn't sleep in the afternoon or whenever...
I was basically doing... nothing.. haha
What a way to spend the day don't you think...

I guess I slept too much...
I can't sleep...

If tears could make a stairway, I'd already be in heaven....

Crying actually hurts.. the eye...
I forced myself to sleep for what seems like eternity everytime I wake up
Waking up isn't something pleasant at the moment
You called in the morning and I was asleep
You called in the afternoon and still I was asleep
Maybe if you called at night I'll still be asleep
And I slept so much I dont' even know who's behind the phone
Sleeping is my escape
the only exit that I see
that'll keep me from all the hurt I wouldn't want to go through
something that I find comfort in...
I'm Lifeless, dead...

Since young..
Never once do i have the guts to shout at you or even talk back
I'm never good enough for you
You always say I'm lazy, selfish, self-centered..
You say I only know how to bless others but not my own family members
You say I give alot of excuses when I'm asked to do something
You say I complain alot
You say I never help out
You say I'm ill manared
You say I always talk back(SINCE WHEN!!)
You say I'm worst than before
You say until i'm like rubbish...
Worthless...
You say I only know how to cry....
HELLO??!! I WAS BORNED LIKE THIS!!!!!
AND YOU'RE SHOUTING AND YELLING AT ME!!
HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO RESPOND??? SMILE AT YOU??!!
YEA, SO WHAT... I'M GOING TO CRY TILL I GO BLIND!!! AND NEVER WAKE UP!!!

It's the hols and I've spent 3 days at home
I sleep, eat, surf the net, sleep, eat, surf the net...
It's like a cycle.... a boring holiday daily life cycle...

I force myself back to sleep everytime I wake up
In hope that the time will by pass
But it just goes slower and slower till I get so restless
I have no choice but to get up...
My dad complains that I won't help do the house chorse even thou I'm so free
My mum nags that my room is a mess when there's nothing to clean
She covered all my trophies with this layer of book wrapper so it doesn't get dusty
My joy and my pride all hidden under this layer of fabric
Even thou they're visible but I just don't feel good about it
Well I guess I'll have to look on the bright side...
They were suppose to go into boxes for who knows why
Not that I get trophies anymore...
My school don't even give trophies.. they give certs...
My collection of trophies started when I was 7 and ended when I was 12 and it only sums up to a total of 60 plus
Not that I've reached a collection of a hundred trophies...
maybe then I'll consider keeping SOME of them into boxes...

I have tons of holiday assignments..
The teachers think that 2 weeks are super long period of time that they give you so much work you won't care to remember what to do, when to do, when to pass up or when to finish.
And I'm stuck at home not doing any of my supposed to do work...
Isn't it awesome...
I feel like crying again for who knows why
I really hate myself...

I love the songs on my playlist

Sleeping is a good way to pass time
The clock showed that it's 7.00
And so I thought a day has passed and it's Tuesday morning already
and then I realized I slept so long that it has already passed dinner time...

The emptiness and the loneliness
Dreams that wake me up shouting in the middle of the night
I sometimes find myself drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.

You were there when I needed someone
You called despite how late it is
You never gave up on me even thou I wouldn't tell you what happened
You don't hang up on me even if I kept quiet
You used up all your credit and you said it doesn't matter
You know, you never really existed in my life before
and one day you came
to tell you the truth, I said"yes"out of reluctance
but you did stuff to me, for me
whether I know it or not
and it really touched me how much you care for me
and slowly, you became part of my life
no matter how much I tried to deny it
you did, and you still are
Thank you
You know who you are